Thursday, March 19, 2009

"Years ago, I was an angry young man"

It isn't that I've given up on blogging it's just that I don't know what to write about anymore. I am so paranoid that I am going to offend someone that I find a reason not to blog about anything that comes to mind lately. And to be honest, I'm a little bitter about those 200 lost posts. I mean this was supposed to be my outlet, a way to get things off my mind whether because they were funny or because they were annoying or... And I know that I said I had changed my mission statement but I'm not feeling great about that either. I mean as absolutely awful as this may sound, I liked venting. My sister said it best the other day, I have an abrasive personality that comes out best through my blog. I wasn't offended, well at least not overly offended, that she said I could be abrasive. I mean, I like to think of myself as compassionate and caring but I guess I need to be honest with myself. Would a caring, compassionate person talk about other people on thier personal blog? Well, you see I've been thinking about this and I've decided that yes. Venting here allows me to be caring and compassionate later. I'm being totally serious. I mean sometimes if I don't vent, I think I may just harm someone or myself. I think that my funk here lately is the result of having nowhere to vent. So anyways, I'm not saying that I'm completely back to my old ways, but if I ever hope to be back, I need to tweak the mission statement. I hope you understand.


wesley's mom (sue) said...

Oh! My! GOSH!! Vent away. You can't just leave me out here offending people left and right all by myself. Besides, I miss your abrasive postings (I'm kidding, I don't think you are abrasive)

I know what you mean about being worried though. I have recently come out of the blogging closet to a few people I know in real life and I have been worried that I am going to offend one of them or that word is going to leak out and that girl that I don't want in my book group is going to find my blog, but I'm kind of getting over it. I mean, she doesn't like me anyway, so what if she finds out the feeling is mutual. (was that mean?)

I really like having a place to unload and while I might change some characteristics to make the objects of my venom less recognizable to themselves, I'm still going to say what I want to say.

Cheryle said...

Hey, girl, it's YOUR blog! If people don't like it, they don't have to read it. Maybe what they don't like is hearing the truth about themselves (same for you, Sue!). I suppose there's some way to block certain people from seeing you; I know other blogsites have subscription or invite-only restrictions, so maybe you should investigate that.

Just don't forget to invite ME because I love your mind. It's so honest and refreshing!